February 2012
12 posts
hardfaced queen of misadventure.
How did I end up in this same position twice? loneliness got the better of me once more. Born to be wanting, see love from a third party perspective. I guess I am to blame… I would say never again, but it will. And the outcome will be the same.
Undercover; hide away.
Temporary fixes. The problem doesn’t go away. Just hidden under an illusion of happiness. This is so fucked.
A little bit of touch
Attachments. We make them, we break them. We do everything in our power to try to keep them together. Sometimes the pieces no longer fit. As we grow older, things are not as they seem. Love and care is not clear cut. There is no ’ i love you and you love me’ sometimes it’s just a one way street. Sometimes what we do unto others are not done to ourselves. That is the reality of...
It was nice meeting you, goodbye.
I wonder….
It's Quiet Company
I can’t fall asleep without a little help. It takes a while to settle down.
I need to get out of this slum, no matter what. I need to save money and go travel and live. Just LIVE. Live for the moment. Doesn’t matter if people desert you, people are everywhere. It’s life. Just move on. Okay self, you have people who love you. May not be as much as others. But if you spend your...
“It takes an ocean not to break.”
Wake up.
People who project negativity have negativity reflected within themselves. Negativity feeds on negativity and boy does it feed on other’s flaws, emotions, wrongs and actions. It needs to stop. I need to stop. I need to let go of negative thoughts before it consumes me whole. I may not need to shit out rainbows and poodles but enough to see the light. Enough to see the goodness in people and...
When did I become a ghost?
The hardest part when your whole life has fallen apart is that the world doesn’t stop for you. It just keeps on keeping on, no matter how much you want it stop. You’re just expected to make do. Things change. People change. Where you are so far from where you used to be. Looking at myself in the mirror sometimes, just wondering who I am, where do I stand, who should I be? It’s...
“You’re no one ‘til someone thinks you’re someone.”
Pledge?
Loyalty. ’ Through thick and thin’ they say. But what happens when the thick spreads you too thin. You’ve been told to stick through the trying times no matter what. So you try. By God, you try. But then you realise that this act of loyalty is just a one way street. Then what, does those same rules apply? I mean no matter what, right? People say that you should move on and let...